Next Stop: Blastocysts

Well, I haven't updated all week. mainly because I've been doing my very best not to think about everything. My mind tends to run away from me at times, and if I let myself think too much right now, I'll go crazy! Fortunately, we've had lots of distractions this week, so it hasn't been too bad. I have been extremely busy at work (I'll take it right now) and we had a lovely weekend at Fall Creek Falls with the family. I can't believe we're already halfway through our 2ww (thats fertility lingo for the dreaded "2 week wait".) So close!

I sort of broke a promise I made to myself this week, and Lori caught me in the act at work. My curiousity got the better of me and I did a little research. All in the name of science, of course. If everything is going as it should (and I still recognize that it is a big if), we should now be in the blastocyst phase. Sounds exciting! Blastocysts form when zygote(s) actually attach itself/themselves to the lining of the uterus, thus establishing a blood source from the mother. It can occur anywhere from 6-10 days post ovulation. I also read (and you can believe everything on the internet) that a blastocyst is barely detectible by the human eye, smaller than the dot on the letter "i". Amazing, isn't it? That we all started out visible only to our Maker?

The next step, hopefully, is embryos. Hard to believe a week from today we should know something. I have an appointment with Dr. Keenan next Monday at 11:00, and we'll talk about one of two things. When do we start another round of shots, or what steps do we need to take to help maintain a pregnancy? You know which Steve and I prefer, as I am sure you all do! I am trying to prepare my heart and mind for whatever God has chosen to do with the latest round of medicine. We can only do so much.... the rest is entirely in His hands.

Honestly, this has been one of the most difficult things I have ever had to do. I am sure Steven would say the same thing. I can't say enough how much we both appreciate the care, concern, thoughts, encouragement, support, love and everything else you all have done for us. And, most of all, for the prayers. For patience, for the blessing of children, for zygotes, for blastocysts, for my health, for courage for Steve to give me the shots, for everything. We could not have made it this far without you. Keep them coming!